Hi again, well this is the third time i've written today, well like it's says i do need a place to call home. No, i haven't been kicked out ofmy house, i just need...life.
Why can't i be as happy as Sly Cooper And Carmelita Fox? Why is it so hard to find happiness? Why can't i make friends? I'm different from most ppl, i don't judge nor do i act a certain way to impress ppl. I want happiness, but i can't find it.
Why isn't life so simple?
Why can't happiness be found throught heart?
Why is it difficult to say i'm happier without the sun?
Why is it difficult to be a human being without someone breathing down your neck?
But my only REAL friends wanna say something too.
Eliza- Hey all out there, Angel is one of those ppl whocan't take the easy way out of things. She gets caught in the moment. And she's one of Sly Cooper's BIGGEST FANS!!!!!
Bailey- True that! She's written some stories on Fanfiction.net that you should read. Her name on that is BlackLadyofTheNite, well on that she is 11, but in the real world, she's only 9...Angel ain't no Angel.
Carla- Yeah! But!!! She can change her personality ALOT! One minutes she's happy; next upset, next; angry! grrrrrrrr with the stupid mood swings!
and...
Kexi, a.k.a Lilly- W/e Angel, just hang in there...tough times call for sleepovers! This weekend is SLEEPOVER FRIDAY!!!!!!!!!!
First,
real quick, my tooth! It has been a long two weeks, in and out of the dentist office, on anitbiotics, still my tooth bothered me and hurt and got pretty damn bad, so finally I got a root canal today! I was so afraid of the root canal but so far so good, I think it probably helped but we'll see. I also got my permenant crown and so I don't have to go back the 21st!
Now, CN,,, I guess I don't really know where we stand. I have been SO extremely mean to him at times! I don't know why. I know my tooth hurting has been a Bitchyness factor but still the poor guy doesn't deserve it! My moods have been so up and down. Sometimes I think I need to get back on the A-D but I really don't want to! AGH! I don't know what to think anymore! I am going crazy with the boys, they are so naughty most days and I lose my patience with them and my anger gets the best of me. I think sometimes they deserve a good spanking but not all the yelling and me losing my temper and smacking them. I think Cory sees how I have been reacting and doesn't want to commit to "THIS!" and surely doesn't want to bring a baby into this mess! (Believe it or not, I have actually been thinking of a baby-- girl!---) and he hasn't been lovey to me or told me I am beautiful and doesn't talk to me hardly at all. I'm not sure what is going on with us. I do think I am starting to get stressed thinking about selling my house and moving and possibly giving up my job to be with someone who doesn't (right now) at like he even loves me! HUM!
I am the most prettiest girl in the world. I am very Unique. And Powerful. My true love is Austin Banton. I love butterflies, angels, and spider pig...the thing i think is the best is, my best friends, Trista, Psycho Kitty (AngelOfDarkness), and my family. If you read this, thank you.
, AngelEyes
Firstly, can I just say a very big Thank You to everybody that left a comment or email message for me. I almost keeled over when I saw how many I had. For one horrible moment I thought, while under the Influence, I had struck up some kind of deal with guido trying to make it big, in my bid for fame and success! lol. Alas, that was not the case, considering I stumbled on guido's page by pure accident, I was just lucky enough to be on the right page at the right time! lol and boy! am I glad I did!. There will be a rather large glass of either Brandy and Lemonade or Bacardi and Diet Coke raised in the air towards you all on Christmas morning lol.
Decided to miss the usual Christmas Tipple last year until way after dinner! Hmmmm. What a silly move! lol. I was too stuffed and exhausted to lift the glass let alone attempt to compete in the usual Christmas day extremely competitive games,quizzes and sing-a-longs! For there only being 3 of us, It's amazing how much noise we can muster up! lol Bet the neighbours loved the peace last year! Well this year, It will be back to normal! lol. Dinner will be on the table for no later than 2pm. I will just make sure my glass comes with me when I have my usual bath in the morning along with choccies and bath goodies. Awww. I think I just got a twinge of excitement.
For some reason, It hasn't felt very Christmassy this year. I don't know If anyone else has noticed this? or Is It maybe just me? What I do know though, Is how absolutely freezing It Is!. I took ages to heat up last night. I was wrapped up In 4 layers aswell and still couldn't get warm. Can't believe that earlier today, I agreed to have a test run for our Christmas Dinner..... lol bought a huge stuffed Pork Roast, Roast Tatties, Carrots and yorkshire puddings! Tasted amazing on Sunday!! lol Now, can you all tell we love our food here? lol.
I have the cheek to grumble about being a lot heavier than usual! Well, Hmmm, I wonder why! lol. Och, If the truth be known, This Is the one time of year that everyone should be having big hot meals and be all cosied up with the fire on doing something they love! Ooeer! within reason of course! lol Must go just now and refill my cup of tea and check the oven. Back Soon. xx
plain and simple, i do not ever want to talk to you again. you were a friend while i needed one, but i do not need you anymore. not if its going to be this fucking hard. not if you are going to tell my secrets after i trusted you not to. not after all of this. i seriously, really wanted to be friends with you for a really long time. but you cause too much fucking drama for me. it is not my problem that you feel so strongly towards ben, seriously tiah grow up. he has fucked up a ton of times. so have you. so have i. everyone fucks up, deal with it. if i have ever hurt you, which i apparantly have on many occasions, it was NEVER on purpose and you do not understand that. you make it seem like i am out to get you! I am not out to make your life fucking hell tiah. whatever, drop it because we cant be friends. i have given up for good, and i really hope you have too. you make things way too hard, ya you. i tried my fucking best and its just not good enough. it never is.
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hailey8908 36, Female, Indiana, USA - 3 entries